Sad :-(
Wuz up. I haven't been writing lately. I'm sorry. I've been really upset. And just thinking about stuff that's happened I'm already starting 2 cry again the millonith time since friday. I'll just say some stuff cuz i don't want some people 2 know what's been giong on.

1st thing. RYAN L. SUX!! He has some stupid girlfriend that lives in maryland. 4 a year. And when you've had a crush on a guy 4 10 yrs and never actually admit it 2 yourself and then when u do he has a girlfriend It hurts unbelievable.

I didn't want 2 do anything this weekend but i had 2 go and be happy go lucky Najeah. Just like everyone excepts me 2. I have 2 be the happy one in this confused little life. I like being happy but gosh sometimes I want 2 show some feelings and everyone seems against it when i try 2. Not just my friends everyone. it's kinda my fault 2. I don't want 2 cry in front of people i don't want 2 talk 2 people. I want 2 live in my little world all by myself and be pretty. I wish i was.

Another thing that hapened was this thing that I can't go intill much detials cuz it hurts 2 much. I was taking 2 this guy that goes 2 arabic school with me. Were not friends. So he says he wants 2 talk 2 me. So i talk 2 him and he tell's me some stuff i really didn't want 2 know. And the stuff he told me HURT! ALOT! and it suxed alot.

Allie's got a secert admirer. I should be happy. I want 2 be happy 4 her but i can't. Don't get mad but it's happining again. It's just like school nothing changes. nothing at all. I'm always in the shadows and all the guys end up liking allie. not me. Why? no one asks me out. no guys flirt with me. nothing. I wish i was pretty i really do. but i'm NOT! I never was and never will be.

I hate how everyone thinks they can joke with me and tease me and call me stuff like stupid and think i can take it cuz i have a perfect life. But i don't. no ones is. I have feelings and they don't seem 2 relize it. Even my mom.no one. i don't mean 2 sound mean. But allie is giong 2 go write in her diary about how everyone hates her. NO one hates her i wish she would relize that. But she can't. Guys like her not me. All our friends like her and weither i like it of not she has randy.

well whatever i'm giong 2 go adn write in MY diary. bye bye bye

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~~ME~~

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Najeah. 18. Bluenette (Blue and Brown Hair). SXE. Community College. Single. Unique. Weird. Bad Speller. Spoiled. Graphic and Fashion Designer.

LOVES
Penguins. Bono. U2. Music. Friends. Writing. Britney Spears. Versace. Paris and Nicky Hilton. Sleeping. Eating.

Hates Mean People. Bratty People. Abuse. Energy Drinks. Bunnies. Avril Lavinge. Justin Timberlake. X-tina. Mirrors. American Eagle and Ambercrombie and all of those other shitty stores.

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