Gunshot through the head
So yah life has been really sucky lately.

Hmm where should I start. Well yesterday I guess I was suppsed to be cleaning my parents room. (why they never clean my house?) But I didn't. So my dad came home got mad and said I couldn't leave my mom's closet untill it was clean. So me and my mom cleaned half of it then she went to talk to my dad. And of course my dad yelled at me to come in so then he started yelling at me about some attitude I'm starting to have or something. I dunno.

Then told me to get outta his face before he killed me. He actually told me I could hang myself if I wanted too. Which I kinda did. But thats a long death so mabye not.

So then he calls me back in there about how I said something about why was I cleaning it's not my stuff and starts yelling at me agian *sigh* Then throws the remote at me then chases me into my grandmas room where he begins to push me on the floor and pull me by my hair and beat my head into the corner of the door. Which hurts might i add. All while my mom yelling I'll call the cops I will and my grandma yelling at him to stop. Then he threw a box at my ma and they started yelling at each other. So I ran into the bathroom crying. My head really hurt. :(

So then my ma came in saying that by the end of the week we are going to be outta of here.

I don't belive her, She said she was going to call lawyers before but she hasn't. My grandma today said why can't I be a good kid then I wouldn't get hurt. *Meaning this is all your fault*

I just told my mom that one day is she is going to look for me and I'll have a gunshot through the head. *Meaning I'm going to kill myself :(* So now shes all upset and I wanna ask her if she called lawyers or whoever you call to get a divorce but I know she didn't. Never does.

Shoulder hurts *crys in pillow*

And I'm 18 I could leave. If I had a job or money. Or a place. But since I don't I guess I'll just stay here in hell.

Marshmallows and Hugs~

~~ME

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Najeah. 18. Bluenette (Blue and Brown Hair). SXE. Community College. Single. Unique. Weird. Bad Speller. Spoiled. Graphic and Fashion Designer.

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Penguins. Bono. U2. Music. Friends. Writing. Britney Spears. Versace. Paris and Nicky Hilton. Sleeping. Eating.

Hates Mean People. Bratty People. Abuse. Energy Drinks. Bunnies. Avril Lavinge. Justin Timberlake. X-tina. Mirrors. American Eagle and Ambercrombie and all of those other shitty stores.

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